Sunday, January 4, 2009
Hi Everyone.. Hehe.. I know you have been waiting for my pics. As you know, I am very lazy person. :P Well, I will upload when I gather all my pictures from my future-hubby. So of course I have great time during my vacation trip. I already don't care my work stuff. :P Enjoy life! Cos We all only live once. Have a Prosperous and Good 2009! ( Although it wont happen as economic is down)
Wishing you all well and stay happy!
Yesterday, I went to farms with my future-hubby's family... Have lots of fun and bought a lot for dinner. Haha.. my future sister-in-law is a great cook. Ei.. I think I better go learn cook too:P
Hmm I already start finding government job.. Hopefully can get it. So currently my job is pretty suck, and I don't care. So currently I still have to drag myself to work which is soooooooo..... no good. Last time I work I still able to take it... now I don't seem I can. Anyway I still have to endure.
Alright. I shall stop here cos I don't know what to say:P
Wishing you all well and stay happy!
Yesterday, I went to farms with my future-hubby's family... Have lots of fun and bought a lot for dinner. Haha.. my future sister-in-law is a great cook. Ei.. I think I better go learn cook too:P
Hmm I already start finding government job.. Hopefully can get it. So currently my job is pretty suck, and I don't care. So currently I still have to drag myself to work which is soooooooo..... no good. Last time I work I still able to take it... now I don't seem I can. Anyway I still have to endure.
Alright. I shall stop here cos I don't know what to say:P
10:31 AM Deadgalzz Y
Monday, December 22, 2008
I'm now 21. Normally everyone would think that: wow! You are adult now but still young. Well to me, it is nothing big deal. I dun like the feeling everyone look at me. Just like today and Saturday, when everyone look at me and sing happy birthday song. I feel very awkward. Anyway, thanks everyone for helping me to celebrate my birthday and thanks for the presents. Love you all family cousins and friends.
Today I got say again drawing not good. I don't know what's up with my Project Manager. I gave him on Saturday and he has ample time to check what he wants. Yet he now then tell me drawings still cannot be submitted and then give me an idiot face and walk off. I was like stunned. I feel like scolding vulgarities. What kind of attitude is that? Happy then smile at you. Not happy treat you like rubbish. Kinda felt inferior by his action. I know I'm not up to it. I think I rather find a stable job like gov stuff. I think I step - in on the wrong path. I felt I don't seem to enjoy the process at all, rather I feel I am dragging myself to work. By the time, it is almost knock off time. I don't care, I walk out the office.
Well, it's ok. I learnt my lesson. I shall never work with small private company anymore.
Today I got say again drawing not good. I don't know what's up with my Project Manager. I gave him on Saturday and he has ample time to check what he wants. Yet he now then tell me drawings still cannot be submitted and then give me an idiot face and walk off. I was like stunned. I feel like scolding vulgarities. What kind of attitude is that? Happy then smile at you. Not happy treat you like rubbish. Kinda felt inferior by his action. I know I'm not up to it. I think I rather find a stable job like gov stuff. I think I step - in on the wrong path. I felt I don't seem to enjoy the process at all, rather I feel I am dragging myself to work. By the time, it is almost knock off time. I don't care, I walk out the office.
Well, it's ok. I learnt my lesson. I shall never work with small private company anymore.
11:03 PM Deadgalzz Y
Monday, December 15, 2008
Today I cried. I got told off by my Project Director because I cant give the standard drawing to Main Contractor. I holding my tears before I went into his room. Eventually, I can't hold it anymore that my tears roll off my cheek.
I cried not because his words but because I am too stress up and too tired. I've been drawing the same things and none is up to standard. I give what I told, and still, not enough. This give me a second thought: Am I suitable for this job? or should I work as government sector? Can someone gives me an advice?
None have given me, neither JW. I feel very pessimistic. Makes me not good enough for him too. Not good for anything! Well, I wonder if I end my life like this?
One thought: further my studies as private student in property management and work in gov sector, another thought: work at current company for time being and then see how. Can somebody gives me an advice but not just listening or reading it?Seriously I hate people who only want to listen for the sake of listening yet not sure they understand or not. I need somebody's suggestion but not quietly listening.
I've been losing my temper and patience lately. Everytime I go work, I always give this face :( But I never tell JW about it cos he may not understand. Well, venting all my anger into the blog makes me feel better, at least maybe somebody read it able to ans.
I cried not because his words but because I am too stress up and too tired. I've been drawing the same things and none is up to standard. I give what I told, and still, not enough. This give me a second thought: Am I suitable for this job? or should I work as government sector? Can someone gives me an advice?
None have given me, neither JW. I feel very pessimistic. Makes me not good enough for him too. Not good for anything! Well, I wonder if I end my life like this?
One thought: further my studies as private student in property management and work in gov sector, another thought: work at current company for time being and then see how. Can somebody gives me an advice but not just listening or reading it?Seriously I hate people who only want to listen for the sake of listening yet not sure they understand or not. I need somebody's suggestion but not quietly listening.
I've been losing my temper and patience lately. Everytime I go work, I always give this face :( But I never tell JW about it cos he may not understand. Well, venting all my anger into the blog makes me feel better, at least maybe somebody read it able to ans.
8:36 PM Deadgalzz Y
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Times flies. I am turning 21 in 2 weeks time and I do not feel that "wow" or even excited about it. Although Aunty Katherine organise BBQ at her house to celebrate my big day and allowed me to bring friends, I am still not very anxious about it. Worse, I feel paiseh to use other's place to celebrate. Not like as if we are close, but anyway thank her for making that effort. Well, I do appreciate it but I guess that is what I can get for the least, better than none.
Right now, I feel abit emptiness. I find myself no-good in anything. Quite depressing at the moment as I do not know what I want. Not what I want but what can I do. Simply, everything is not going to be that easy to achieve. I'm not talented, not genius, not smart, lack of confidence now.When I look around at the others, I envy them. When I look at myself, actually I have not achieve a thing that I want. I know I am pessimistic.
Yesterday I watch the anime: Shugo Chara doki. It is about a guardian angel that is would-be-self character. I wish I have one:a sparkling character, confident and have courage. Haha.. I sound so childish. Yes I am. I still keep my inner child.
Right now, I feel abit emptiness. I find myself no-good in anything. Quite depressing at the moment as I do not know what I want. Not what I want but what can I do. Simply, everything is not going to be that easy to achieve. I'm not talented, not genius, not smart, lack of confidence now.When I look around at the others, I envy them. When I look at myself, actually I have not achieve a thing that I want. I know I am pessimistic.
Yesterday I watch the anime: Shugo Chara doki. It is about a guardian angel that is would-be-self character. I wish I have one:a sparkling character, confident and have courage. Haha.. I sound so childish. Yes I am. I still keep my inner child.
8:14 PM Deadgalzz Y
Sunday, November 9, 2008
歌曲：说好的幸福呢
[ar:周杰伦]
[al:魔杰座]
[by:张磊]
周杰伦-说好的幸福呢
词:方文山曲:周杰伦
你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
~~end~~
歌曲：给我一首歌的时间
[ar:周杰伦]
[al:魔杰座]
[by:赖润诚]
周杰伦-给我一首歌的时间
作词:周杰伦
作曲:周杰伦
专辑:魔杰座
☆☆☆千千静听★★★
雨停下的天空灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这世界上
我晒干了承诺灰的更冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起吵分开了错
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好我能承受
在最后的出口再爱过了才用
能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑的心依然勇气当作鄙夷
被淋湿的天空灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了承诺灰的会很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起吵分开了吵
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好我能承受
在最后的出口再爱过了才有用
你说我不该不该
不该在这个时候说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我只有阴天的回忆
你说我不该不该
不该在这个时候说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
你说我不该不该在这时候才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
我只有阴天的回忆
歌曲：小酒窝
[ar:林俊杰 蔡卓妍]
[al:陆]
☆小酒窝 jj 阿sa☆
☆作曲 林俊杰填词 王雅君☆
☆al 陆☆
我还在寻找
一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷替我烦恼
为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊有变化了
<合>小酒窝长睫毛
是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着想念你的微笑
你不知道你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛
迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调
感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老
☆...
幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊有变化了
<合>小酒窝长睫毛是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着想念你的微笑
你不知道你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛
迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调
感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好我永远爱你到老
小酒窝长睫毛
迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调
感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老
☆-_-☆...☆@-_-@☆
7:52 PM Deadgalzz Y
Friday, November 7, 2008
This week I had been very depressed. Not about work as I am already contented of my job now. No point complaining it as compare my previous company, this on consider not bad.
The depressed part is whatever I expected a lot to happen, they end up only happen in my dream. Hmmm.. well, I want to tell all my friends I unable to book chalet, so I 'll be just celebrate at home or maybe not celebrate at all. Due to this, I intend to go for holidays but I have not much savings. My mum take part savings and i left nuts to go anywhere. So I might just work all the way till January new year. Sound very pathetic.. whatever planned turn into rubbish.
Haix... suay year for me.
Whatever la... life always that sucks. Rather be on my own than staying like this forever. That's why I want to leave my house as soon as possible so that I can be on my own. Bleh X(
The depressed part is whatever I expected a lot to happen, they end up only happen in my dream. Hmmm.. well, I want to tell all my friends I unable to book chalet, so I 'll be just celebrate at home or maybe not celebrate at all. Due to this, I intend to go for holidays but I have not much savings. My mum take part savings and i left nuts to go anywhere. So I might just work all the way till January new year. Sound very pathetic.. whatever planned turn into rubbish.
Haix... suay year for me.
Whatever la... life always that sucks. Rather be on my own than staying like this forever. That's why I want to leave my house as soon as possible so that I can be on my own. Bleh X(
7:03 PM Deadgalzz Y
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Halloween at Dragonfly and Firefly.
Well.. i find dragonfly cum Firefly is for mid age- 30+
Whereas Powerhouse station is more for youngster and many people dress up very scary for the event. Have Great time ya!
Well.. i find dragonfly cum Firefly is for mid age- 30+
Whereas Powerhouse station is more for youngster and many people dress up very scary for the event. Have Great time ya!
10:12 PM Deadgalzz Y
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